We’re closing in on the end of the summer and what a summer it has been. I spent most of July dealing with health issues related to my son (they’ve lingered into August – let’s face it they will never completely go away, they will either be acute as they were in July or they will fade into routine as they were back in May and June). August has been primarily about getting my daughter ready to start a new school and she’s had about 4 hours a day of homework to do to cover the summer work the new school assigns. I’ve been trying to get some “me time” but that is nearly always an enormous and sometimes insurmountable challenge.
I anticipate that September will be a challenge as well. My son will, most likely, be starting a new medication that will require very close monitoring. My daughter will be starting a new school, with a hefty commute that will change the rhythm of our family’s day significantly. I will be going back to work, and my husband may be transitioning to a new role at work. So, you know, it will be normal for us, which is to say, chaotic. But by mid to late October I’m hoping for a lull that will give me at least a couple of days to myself to find some calm and focus that I’ll sorely need.
All this busy-ness has, of course, impacted my ability to focus on myself. My food and eating plan this summer has basically been to try to listen to my body, eat when I was hungry, stop eating when I wasn’t, make smart choices like low carb high protein foods, get in some fruits and vegetables when I can, and basically not over eat. It’s been easier than you’d think because of the help the sleeve gives. I sort of can’t believe I just said that, but I really just can’t eat that much.
A typical day looks like this:
- Protein shake or an egg for breakfast around 9 or 9:30am (I can’t eat when I wake up because of a medication that I take that requires I wait an hour to eat after taking it. That one hour inevitably stretches out as I get distracted by my kids and their needs.
- Lunch is usually around 1pm and it’s a rolled up piece of Swiss cheese with a couple of slices of deli turkey in it. (Some days lunch is a protein bar, which is shockingly filling.)
- I have a snack around 4pm of a cheese stick, or a handful of nuts, and a bit of fruit.
- Dinner is around 6:30pm and it’s been totally variable. I choose primarily chicken or fish and some veggies. But when we’ve been on vacation it’s also been some fancy restaurant food and I never eat more than 1/3 of what I’m served and I still go for chicken or fish. Sometimes, I just have a scrambled egg for dinner.
As of today I’ve lost a total of 43 pounds. I’m actually closer to my realistic goal of 165lbs than to my pre-op weight of 238lbs. This is a good thing. Although, to be honest, no one has noticed except the massage therapist I occasionally go to. I hadn’t seen her since last fall and when she saw me she couldn’t believe how different I looked. But no one else has said anything at all to me about it. I guess it’s hard to know why. Some people may be shy to say anything without knowing how I’d feel about it being mentioned. Some people may legitimately not notice. I don’t know. My husband, who’s usually so unbelievably supportive, was surprised when I told him how much weight I’ve lost. He said that obviously I’d lost weight but that he was surprised it was that much.
Oh well. I keep on trucking.
I’m trying to just get from one meal to the next.