I ate a bagel this morning. And a croissant. And a 16 oz carton of orange juice.

I’m having risotto tonight with dinner.

I’m off the rails.

It feels terrible. I wandered around the grocery store in a fog and came home with only part of what I need to pack the kids’ school lunches this coming week.

Abstinence brings with it a clarity that become second nature after a while… now that it’s gone I feel it’s absence so acutely.

I did, however, take my trusty old anti-depressant this morning. It will take a few days to kick in.

I need my higher power today.