After my LapBand surgery 8 years ago I started using a website called Fitday to track my food consumption each day. It gives a handy read out of your calories, fat, carbs, and protein totals when you input what you ate.

I really liked it at the time and I’ve often credited it with helping me to lose those 90 pounds I lost post surgery.

But after my son was born and I was suddenly facing needing to lose 40 pounds again it wasn’t as helpful. As I’ve said before my life sort of exploded after my son was born and if there was one thing I couldn’t muster it was the wherewithal to track my food every day and see those numbers adding up.

One of the things that appealed to me about The Dukan Diet in the first place was that I wasn’t going to have to track my calorie, fat, carb, and protein totals everyday. All I had to do was follow certain rules about what types of foods to eat and what types of foods to avoid and things would be fine. And everything did go fine, I lost 35.5 pounds.

But when the scale shot up unexpectedly last week someone’s comment about their own daily intake numbers made me think maybe it was time for me to revisit the Fitday model.

I logged into my account and discovered that it was all still there despite the years of inactivity. Most interesting to me was taking a look at the custom foods I had input. It was all things like pastas and breads and other highly refined carbs. No wonder it had stopped working; what I was putting into it wasn’t going to help.

So, I started inputting my food. Now, I’ve spent the past year logging everything I eat most days. But this was different. That food log didn’t call for measurements and calculations. It was just if I ate a yogurt I wrote down, yogurt.

I confess I’m not sure how I feel about this. I eat a lot of dairy: non-fat yogurt, skim milk, reduced fat cheese sticks, etc. They are allowed on my food plan. But when I saw the numbers associated with it all it started to mess with my head a bit. I mean on a day when I was technically not eating “carbs” should my total carb intake be 80 grams? That’s from the lactose in the milk. But it didn’t harm me when I was losing weight steadily all last summer. Should I be worrying about it now? Does this mean I’ve failed? Does this mean I have to give up something that I find helpful because it’s secretly not helpful?

You can see how my mind starts to reel. My solution was to take on the laborious task of going back in time and inputting a smattering of days from my steady weight loss phase and seeing what those totals were and attempting to keep my current totals in line with those rather than with some arbitrary number pulled out of the air. Comparing me to me is always more helpful than comparing me to anything else. It’s reassured me a little bit because I can see how what I was doing then compares to what I’m doing now and frankly it’s not all that different.

In conclusion? I’m not sold on this as a helpful tool for me right now. But I’m going to give it a shot to see for certain before I decide.